“This might be hard to believe, but I’m actually quite shy. I get social anxiety during public appearances and even though I’ve made hundreds of videos, I still feel nervous when I press the record button. The thought of making a live broadcast is quite terrifying but @lelo_official have convinced me to take over their Instagram this coming Sunday so that I can finally pop my live broadcast cherry. I’m going to talk about, SONA, LELOgasms and I’d be more than happy to answer your questions. Follow the Lelo account to connect to my very first live broadcast! We will confirm a time v soon. Hope to see you there!”
This is what I posted on Instagram Stories prior to my LELO Instagram takeover.
‘How can you be shy and get naked on your website?’ people often ask me.
Strangely enough, taking belfies and naked selfies is less intimidating than a live broadcast. For some, this may seem like a huge contradiction. But for me, it’s just the way I am.
I must admit that live broadcasts really aren’t my thing if I’m entirely honest. Despite this, I was more than willing to give it a go when LELO asked me to take over their account a couple of weeks ago. Sometimes in life, you need a push to take you to the next level. I believe that discomfort is necessary for growth, and for that, I’m truly grateful.
Although I’m shy, I do realise that my only obstacle in fulfilling my mission of raising orgasmic awareness is my own timid character. If this weren’t the case, I would no doubt be making many more live broadcasts and I probably wouldn’t feel nervous about them.
I’m not at that stage yet, however.
But, I am making some efforts in that direction.
In May this year, I set myself a 30-day challenge and uploaded daily videos to my YouTube channel. By day 24, I was making ‘one take’ videos.
In spite of my progress, I do like my shyness. I find it can be endearing and I love the fact that I can be provocative without being ‘in your face’ when it comes to discussing sexuality. Interestingly, talking about intimacy doesn’t faze me at all. I feel strangely confident when discussing orgasm.
I believe that social media is a tool and that there are so many ways to use it. You don’t have to do what everyone else does. You can use it simply to amplify your own personality and passions. Personally, I don’t follow many accounts and oftentimes, instead of being inspired, I’m shocked by the abundance of fakery.
I always try to express the most authentic me, and not the ‘perfect’ me. I don’t retouch my photos and that’s a rare thing on Instagram, where fakery is rife. I want to go against the grain and promote things such as no makeup challenge, no filter, veganism and no cosmetic surgery, as well as raising orgasmic awareness, which is my primary objective in life.
I didn’t really know how to prepare for a live broadcast. After a few niggles logging in, I started to talk about my experience with Sona. I talked about some of my other LELO favourites, including the sex toy that taught me how to have multiple orgasms on tap. Then, I answered some questions that were mainly about sex toys. I also shared many orgasmic tips that I have picked up after testing hundreds and hundreds of pleasure devices.
Personally, I can’t bear to watch it back, but if you want to, here it is.
Enjoy!